I am a Aries snake who fell in love with an Aquarius pig and they broke my heart!

I am a Aries snake who fell in love with an Aquarius pig and they broke my heart. Its been 2 years,can I heal?

I can't seem to get over them, They live in my local area and when I bump into them I am broken all over again. I think about them from the time I go sleep to the time I wake, though I have a very buisy life...I feel so drawn to her I dont know what to do..
she is 36 and I am 30. do you have any advice?

Of course you will heal friend.Here is what Ms Theodora Lau one of the greatest Chinese astrologers of present times has to say about the Snake:-
"Orientals sometimes regard the Snake as a supernatural creature with a touch of the sinister.This is because he lives for such a long time and reknews himself by shedding his skin for a new one each time he outgrows it.This particular trait symbolizes his ability to be reborn and to emerge from conflict with restored vigour."
She further says about the Snake that he can be very evasive and elusive when he chooses to be and can wriggle free from any situation.So my friend just wriggle out from this like a true snake,shed your skin and you are sure to emerge with restored vigour.
Further your question indicates as if u r in a hypnotised state.Please appreciate in this context that it is the Snake which is capable of hypnotising all other creatures and not the vice versa.From whatever you say it thus appears that you need to raise your level of confidence.Am sure strenuous exercise on a regular basis should help you.It will also help you in getting sound sleep.